Back at it

I have to constantly remind myself that I am not the same person I was before. I am strong and in control. I keep telling myself that: "You are strong and in control." I repeat it over to myself at times when I feel like I cannot go on. I have to pinch myself in reminder that it is June. There's only 2 months left until I am back at school for my final year! I am so excited and so afraid. There is so much to do with both my curricular activities and extra curricular activities. But I am glad. It will take planning but I know that once that's done I will be good. One of my favorite blogs for inspiration ( jade empress) has gone invite only and I've been let without invitation,so I've been finding other inspiration elsewhere. Still it has been difficult, I quite enjoyed her blog since it was both academic and personal. I felt like I related in such a major way.

I've been studying MCATLSATGREGMAT, not that it's easy at my house because it isn't. I need quiet and my family is loud . I blame myself though. I know they're loud. It's up to me to find another place for study-time solace. So I think I'm going to devise some plans today and get on a major study grind.

I realize that my blog needs fotos in the worse way. So my goal of the upcoming month is to get a camera and take photos. But I have so much to overcome, namely my E.D. . Living at home takes a toll on me, so I have to be extra strong not to binge and purge- mostly binge. I gained dam near 15 lbs at last month but I lost somewhere between 5 &8. I now this because my fat pants have started to fit loose again. I am so glad. PLus, after going out with my friend Lioness, last weekend I realizes how important physical health truly is. The competition is stiff out there! So with my physical and academic selves in mind I've been developing plans to get on my grind. The coming semester means that I am in the spotlight and no one wants to be in the spotlight feeling like crap.

That's all for now<3 There will be more tonight.

I should really promote this thing.
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P.S. Totally f-ed up my manicure and broke the strap on my Coach purse. Pissed off!