I just realized the effect of the abuse my ex boyfriend had on me. I honestly feel like I lost so much of myself in the relationship. I gave so much and masked so much of my distain for him underneath smiles that I forgot who I really am. So I am trying to piece back the puzzle.
What I like:
Techno Music, Electronica , Rock,Bossa Nova and sometimes I like rap and R&B. Music I cannot stand the sound of: whiny rock bands and The Beach Boys...
To read, a lot. I love to read and I usually read stories for hours and hours with no problem.
To write.
I like to go sigh seeing, driving, losing weight lol, dining out and a bunch of other things that I stopped doing when I was dating Pudding. It was such a horrible relationship and I was so much better than he is worthy of. I wish I knew that before I started to consider him. No more low self-esteem moments for me. I am cutting people out and not dealing with this shit anymore!
So I am on the road of healing and recovery in more ways than just one.
And it will be a hard but worthy road. I am aping my study time from 2 to 4 hours 6 days a week. I literally have no excuse to do less than that to be honest. So yea... I am going back to me. My focus is on being the best me, mentally, physically and emotional, intellectually that I can possibly be. Period. Everything else is being let go.
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